blog entry #1 - august 24th 2024
welcome to my website!
im very glad i started this little project! even tho it was frustrating at times (centering vertically im looking at u.....) i had a lot of fun :3 it gave me a reason to open photoshop after yearsss and to do some coding as well which i also missed..
one thing im just now realising is that most places where i can tell ppl to go check out my website are mobile apps and this website is NOT meant to be viewed on mobile lol...
WHY IS IT UPSIDE DOWN OMG i gotta work on a mobile version asap
so this site might not reach a lot of ppl for now lol but i dont mind keeping it as some sort of personal blog for the time being. i think i did a good job... it looks really pretty and im proud of it so that's what matters :P
i wanted to make a blog section bc i love writing pages and pages of text about things i like... and i thought it would be fun to write down my thoughts here instead of infodumping in my bf's dms at 3 am as usual its a good opportunity to get better at writing in english too :D
next entry i'd like to write about electronic music and what it means to me, as well as what's it like to be an electronic music enjoyer in a place w an almost non existent underground scene... theres also specific genres and artists i want to write about, as well as videogames and other things. but anyway!! i hope these reach the right people. and if they dont thats okay...
and finally i wanted to add some sites here that were useful in the making of this website, as well as give special thanks to the anne hero discord ppl bc i wouldn't know about neocities if it wasnt for them... especially thanks to malice who is always encouraging everyone to start their own website and has helped me out when i was just starting. also their site is so cool n they do an amazing job at archiving everything evanescence !
javascriptkit.com - cool free javascripts
pixelsafari.neocities.org - cute gifs!!
blinkies.cafe - customizable blinkies!!
tholman.com/cursor-effects/ - cursor trail effects
byebye!! see u soon
blog entry #2 - october 7th 2024
computers have been interesting to me ever since i can remember.
we didnt have a computer at home when i was born (and having one wasnt really the norm in the early-mid 2000s in south america) but i remember being absolutely amazed by whichever ones i came across. i have faint memories of a colorful pc with games for kids we had at my kindergarten that i always ran to whenever they let us pick an activity to do, and i remember trying to use my grandparents' pc before i could even read what the popup signs on the screen were saying. my guess at that time was that they probably said that the computer would explode in 3 seconds so i ran away whenever i saw one :P it's hard to put into words how interacting with computers made me feel as a kid, especially with nostalgia glasses, but i think i was amazed, very curious and at the same time a little bit scared (maybe thats still how i feel in a way LOL) of these magic screens that i could not comprehend, predict or explain by any logic.
whatever my reason for being so obsessed w them was, wherever there was a computer, i would spend as much time as i could using it. whichever house i visited, i asked if they had a computer. i even feel bad remembering this because whenever i went to visit my grandparents, it was more like i was visiting the computer LOL i would literally spend all day in the small computer room doing god knows what!! probably using ms paint? or clicking on settings and messing everything up? or waiting 5 minutes for the images on the websites to load so i could play my silly little games? idk i was just happy to be able to use a computer!!
at some point we got a family pc! i don't remember much about it other than downloading photoshop on it at the age of 10 to make selena gomez edits LOL and i remember my parents not letting me use it for more than half an hour everyday for obvious reasons (it was about time honestly...) also they let me create a facebook account when i was 7 iirc? and i dont know what they were thinking Lol.
when i was in elementary school i got MY very first computer (for free! shoutout to public education and the government at that time) and it was, for me, a dream come true!! that silly little laptop with 2 gb of ram made me the happiest girl in 5th grade lmao. you mean this is MINE? for ME only? i downloaded tons of music, pictures of whatever i was a fan of at that time, and most importantly, i customized the SHIT out of it which was something my parents asked me Please not to do with the family computer. custom icons, custom cursor, custom font, and the pink-est Windows 7 theme i could find on deviantart. wish i had pictures but here are some old windows 7 themes i found that have the exact same vibe LOL.
(i still have this laptop lying around my house. its not turning on but i want to try and fix it whenever i have some free time... i would really love to see my old desktop one more time lol)
so now i have a desktop (still not mine only lol hopefully when i move out at some point) and a purple 7 year old laptop that i use almost every day, mostly for studying or coding this website :) i get to make music thanks to my computer, i get to make art, i get to talk to people thousands of kilometers away from me that i never would've talked to otherwise.
but that's not really the main reason why i like computers. after so many years of using them, customizing them, trying to fix them after downloading executables from the wrong sites, formatting them, installing all sorts of programs, games, drivers and stumbling upon the most random problems... i always feel that no computer problem is truly unsolvable. i'm sure there are exceptions (like when my parents forgot to do a backup of our family pictures before formatting the pc... though that arguably had a solution as well) but it's always kinda fun for me to fix pc problems because i feel like whatever problem i encounter, there is a solution, and i just have to find it somehow. and i think that's really cool... its almost like a puzzle where i have to piece together the information i got from 3 reddit threads, 2 quora questions and some obscure abandoned forum lol.
that last part is actually another reason why i like computers. it's the people! the people that made them, the people that understand them and explain them to me, the people who are out there fixing 2005 desktop pcs just for fun or because they remind them of their childhoods, the people that develop apps for a very specific purpose that probably only them and other 20 ppl will need but they post them on github anyway... i admire their work a lot!!
and then there's moments where this feeling of being able to solve anything is sometimes killed by the occasional unpredictability of computers, like getting a random blue screen out of nowhere or things just not working like they're supposed to when you're doing everything right. it makes me feel like no matter how experienced i am and no matter how much i know, i'll always be a little bit scared of computers. there will always be something about them that i cannot explain by any logic. and though frustrating at times, it's also probably the thing i like the most :3
blog entry #4 - december 11th 2024
first live lydels dj set ever yupppp
so the other day i saw there was an open call to participate in a small festival that students were organizing in my uni and i thought it would be a nice opportunity to do a dj set for the first time! i was a bit doubtful at first though because i was pretty sure that if they chose my project i was going to be the only dj there... and electronic music isnt super popular where i live, let alone the subgenres that i personally like... but then i said fuck it lets do it anyway lol so i sent them my music n stuff and they chose my project among other ones :3
i got there early and saw some of the other presentations and they were all quite experimental and weird so i felt a lot more comfortable with playing weird music knowing that LOL
and uhh the event itself was kind of a mess (it wasnt their fault really though) everything was wayyy past the schedule i was supposed to play around 10:30 pm and i ended up playing around 1:30 am.... and also by the time it was my turn the ppl organizing it were like hey we have to start cleaning n stuff because its way too late and we cant stay for much longer here... (also a lot of ppl were leaving too LOL there was probably around 30 people left by the time i finished setting up) and so they were like do you still wanna play or nah... and i doubted for a second bc i was sleepy n tired lol but my friends were there mainly to see me play so i was like yeah i'll do it and they were like aight...
so i played!! and i had a lot of fun!! it was quite a nice surprise because i always get nervous when i have to do presentations or literally anything in front of a group of people so i was expecting to feel the same way now BUT apparently i like DJing a lot because contrary to what i expected i did not get nervous at all! i was just having fun and vibing to the music i didnt feel anxious or scared at any point which is crazy to me lol
apparently the ppl that stuck around liked my set which im happy about! i was too concentrated on what i was doing so i didnt look up much but my parents (shoutout to them for helping me carry stuff) told me that people were dancing a Lotttt and also some ppl came to say they liked it after i was done :3 now that i think about it maybe it's better that there wasnt too many people there it wouldnt have had the same vibe idk...
shoutout to my friends who came all the way to my uni, stayed there for a Looooong time because everything got delayed and i ended up playing super late, yet they were there dancing during my set, helping me to set everything up before that and encouraging me to play anyways regardless of everything that was going on... idk what i would do without them!! i love yall!!
i want to do this more often... i'll try my best to keep playing shows!
blog entry #4 - march 26th 2025
i've been feeling kinda stuck when it comes to making music lately... i'd say i'm doing better now, but after i released my ep a few months ago i've been struggling to make music that i really connect with and that feels "genuine" to me. it's been kinda overwhelming to think about, so i'm gonna try to organize my thoughts on it:
first of all is probably the fact that i'm older now and i have to focus on college and probably getting a job sometime soon. i never really expected to be able to make a living from music (if it happens im not complaining at all though :P) so that's not really a problem in itself, but the fact that i'm only gonna be busier from now on makes me feel like i Have to make something good whenever i do have free time, or else i'm wasting it...
kind of related to that is the fact that i think i've grown and changed a lot as a person since 2022. the way i present myself has changed, the way i think about a lot of things has changed, the people i talk to and the communities i'm a part of have changed. and all of that has me wondering what my purpose for making music is. back when i first started that wasn't really on my mind at all. that's not necessarily a bad thing, i really just did it because it was fun and because it felt like the right thing to do. making music felt very natural to me, or at least i remember it that way. so sometimes i feel like i want to go back to that, but at the same time i think the reason i feel so stuck is in part because i want to explore something else with my music, and go further than "something i make for fun". the question is, what do i even want to explore? do i want to make more "meaningful", lyric/vocal oriented music? or do i want to make more danceable music that i can play in my dj sets? i think my music has always been hard to categorize and i've always played with elements of many different genres, which is something i like, but at the same time it makes it really hard to fit into any labels or collectives of other artists, always being too *something* for this label but not enough *something* for this other label. should i stick to one genre? is that even what I personally want or would i just be doing it to fit in somewhere? am i maybe just overthinking all of this and i should just shut up?? HOW DO I DO THAT help lol
it feels really cliche to describe because its a rabbit hole that i think most artists fall into at some point, but i'm not sure how to proceed from now on. i'll still be making music and hopefully figuring it out in the process but these are questions that are always in the back of my mind, and they've been for a long time...
lastly, the amount of plays in my songs is something that has never really affected me or the way i make music, but i do think i got a bit too lucky with the first songs i released lol... my second release ever got some attention thanks to someone adding me to their youtube mix (it has 1.2 MILLION plays on youtube as of now wtf) so it all happened very quickly, and i might have gotten the impression that getting my music heard was a lot easier than it actually is. dont get me wrong, i'm very very grateful to still have people sending me nice messages and listening to my music everyday, and honestly to even have 1 person doing that is enough for me. and also of course, i make music for myself, and i'm sure that if i had gotten 0 attention from the start i'd still be making music. but i do have moments of doubt when i think about making big projects (like an album...) because i can give it all of my efforts, pour my heart n soul into it, pay for some really nice cover art and such, and in the end, by the time i'm finally done, it might reach 2 people in total depending on how lucky i got algorithm wise lol. it would be a work i'd be super proud of regardless, of course, but it's obviously disheartening to think that i might not have anyone to share it with.
people from the US or other countries might read this and wonder why i only talk about online plays and labels and such, and say "hey have you tried going outside and connecting with your local scene instead" and that's something i've been trying to do as much as i can (hopefully i'll start playing actual dj sets this year) but the electronic music scene is not big in argentina at all, let alone the dnb scene, LET ALONE the jungle scene. some cool guys from the small dnb community we have in buenos aires are being v nice to me and they've given me the opportunity to practice with CDJs for the first time, and we have some other things planned that im excited about. but the jungle scene is still almost nonexistent, so i'll have to work hard if i want to start playing sets and sharing jungle with people. im already overwhelmed dude im just some girl idk if im capable of carrying the responsibility of such a task LOL
so anyways... idk what the conclusion is... thank u if u read all of that and lmk if you've been through something similar bc i'd love to hear your thoughts :P
blog entry #5 - 4 de abril de 2025
ayer ví a justice en vivo!! y me gustó tanto que tenía muchas ganas de hablar de eso en este blog 
además de que fue el show más visualmente hermoso que vi, fue algo especialmente hermoso para mí porque amo mucho a justice desde que tengo como 15 años... me acuerdo d estar totalmente obsesionada con audio, video, disco (que sigue siendo mi álbum favorito de ellos) y mirarme el "documental" (es muy pedorro como para llamarlo así) de a cross the universe y me cuesta mucho procesar que esos mismos dos tipos son los que tuve enfrente ayer ajsadjjs TODAVÍA NO LO PUEDO CREERRR HICE UN CARTEL Y ME LO FIRMARON bueno más abajo hablo d eso
realmente QUE PEDAZO DE SHOWWW yo había visto una parte de su presentación en el coachella y tenía una idea de cómo manejaban las luces y las visuales pero ver todo eso en vivo es realmente una locura. no puedo expresar lo agradecida q estoy de haber tenido la chance de ver este show acá... no me imagino lo terrible que debe ser transportar esa cantidad de luces y equipamiento hasta sudamérica y la verdad dudo que hayan sacado mucha ganancia de esto así que gracias justice te amo mucho y gracias por darme la oportunidad de ver y escuchar algo tan hermoso 
fue todo tan lindo que hasta los perdono por casi no haber pasado temas de audio video disco (en un momento pasaron un microsegundo de civilization y casi me muero en realidad no pusieron la canción completa por mi salud)
una cosa q me llamó la atención.. antes de ir estuve dudando de si ir para la valla o quedarme mas atrás porque no sabía qué tan heavy iba a estar el público, y al final fue mil veces mas tranqui de lo q esperaba?? cuando fui a ver a phoenix (banda bastante más tranqui que justice) estuve aplastada todo el show por la gente que hacía pogo atrás (aun así el mejor día de mi vida no me quejo para nada) y me imaginé que con justice iba a ser peor, pero se ve que la audiencia era de edad millenial para arriba porque estando en valla y todo podía bailar y saltar con bastante espacio de sobra 
lowkey DEMASIADO tranquilos todos igual... amigo está sonando stress cáguense a palos un poco... ellos (xavier y gaspard) parecían estar contentos con el público igual así que capaz no estuvo tan mal (o los de eeuu eran peores en comparación jsjdss)
cuestión que HICE UN CARTEL no sabía si hacerlo porque sabía que iba a ser la única boluda con un cartel y capaz era un poquito #cringe, pero creo q a la mayoría de artistas les copa bastante q alguien se tome el tiempo de hacer alguna cosa así para ellos y es mi unica forma de decirles q amo mucho lo que hacen así que me mandé a hacerlo igual 
y me alegro mucho d haberlo hecho!! xavier me señaló desde el escenario y me pareció que gaspard me vió y me sonrió 
y a mí con eso me alcanzaba y me sobraba realmente PERO DESPUÉS... xavier bajó del escenario a firmarle un cd a la chica de al lado (lo estuvo sosteniendo todo el show totalmente merecido) y me costó reaccionar por un par de segundos porque tenía al mismísimo Xavier de rosnay enfrente mío skjfnsdsd pero me animé a acercarle el cartel, lo leyó y después me lo firmó 
lo mismo con gaspard después, y hasta me hizo una seña de gracias WHY ARE YOU THANKING MEEE I SHOULD BE THANKING YOU!! a ambos les dije gracias lo mas fuerte q pude, por firmarme el cartel obvio, pero también se sintió como agradecerles por acompañarme tantos años con su musica~ así que nada no me lo voy a olvidar nunca... yo no podia creer que estas dos personas estaban realmente enfrente mío, encima son un amor, se quedaron un buen rato firmando cosas y se los veía re agradecidos y contentos con el show así q espero q vuelvan pronto los amo xavier y gaspard
no llegué a comprar nada de merch... quien sepa de un local q venda remeras de justice me avisa por favor...
blog entry #1 - august 24th 2024